Monday, January 11, 2010
I asked Sophia about her input on my dilemma with Kevin. She encouraged me not to contact him. I agree and I just deleted his message from Saturday. After all, I think guilt was the only reason I was going to call him back. Not because I particularly wanted to or it was healthy or anything.
Talking with him—especially knowing about how my Love Addiction works—is too risky. It would lead me to a place where I do not wish to go. So I’m happy, now.
Physical Notes: Sharp headache tonight.
Some more guys at the SAA meeting tonight mentioned that they can see it in my face that I look like I’m in a better place than when I first started the program in October 2009. I think they’re right and I’m really trying to heal as best as I can.