Thursday, March 08, 2010
I felt angry, upset, irritable, and lonely yesterday. Maybe it was because of the Anger List. I spontaneously bought a tank and a betta fish yesterday, perhaps to help curb the lonely feeling. I guess I expected to never feel lonely ever again, but I suppose that it’s ok and normal to sometimes feel lonely. I wish I had more emotionally-healthy friends. I’ve recently lost two—I felt like they were clinging onto me, as if looking to me to fill their voids, instead of taking care of themselves. I felt suffocated. I need a lot of space and time for solitude. I want to take things slowly and I want friends who will respect these needs.