August 13, 2010

Friday, August 13, 2010

I’m restless.

I don’t know where I’ll be living, 3 or 6 months from now.

It seems up-in-the-air.

It could go either way—end up anywhere.

Will there really be a food shortage, or am I buying seeds for nothing? [Several New Age websites and “conspiracy theorists” were predicting the crash of the U.S. Dollar, civil war, worldwide natural catastrophes, 2012 mass ascension with aliens, etc]. 

English: Reverse of the Great Seal of the Unit...

English: Reverse of the Great Seal of the United States. Dansk: Bagsiden af USAs store statssegl. Deutsch: Siegel der USA, Rückseite Français : Revers du Grand sceau des États-Unis d’Amérique. Македонски: Опачина на грбот на Соединетите Американски Држави 日本語: アメリカ合衆国の国章の裏面。 Svenska: Baksidan av USA:s stora sigill 中文: 美國國徽的反面 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Well… not for nothing. I love gardening. I want to grow things regardless if there is a food shortage.

FEARS CREEPING UP LIKE A BAD WEGGIE

I feel uncertainty.

I feel fear—fear of a food shortage and fear of people stealing my wonderful plants, instead of just taking a couple veggies [outside my apartment in the southwest U.S., I had a few large pots trying to grow tomatoes, strawberries, and peppers. It was a futile effort because it only got a couple hours of sunlight each day, much to my dismay.]

I worry that I’ll suck at gardening. Right now, it’s ok if I suck, because I can just go to the store if the plants die. But if there is no more food at the store, I depend on me. Hopefully I can find a group with other skills and we can work together to create food—like bread.

I fear people being aggressive, instead of loving, during this transition phase [the 2012 “ascension” that never happened]. …rape, stealing, murder… I hope I’ll find a safe spot.

I want to help people and grow food for them, but I don’t want them to take without asking, or to be violent. Maybe I can ask the forest to protect me.

I want to live in a forest, but I don’t know how to find available land. I hope to live near a clearing, so I can build a garden (maybe greenhouse?)

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